flabbergasted

you know the word.
it comes up in all types of books.

flabbergasted -- to be overcome with astonishment.
never thought i'd be able to use it.

it's not shocking or a sense of astonishment.
it's when there is simply sensation, without thought.
neither good, nor bad.
just slight horror and suspicion...
that someone has to be lying.

i'm simply flabbergasted.
what a goddamn small world.

i'm not disappointed.
who am i kidding?
i probably am.
i wanted
to not
know
now.

screw it.
let's not think.
i have too much to do
and not enough neurons
to wrap my head around this

i feel
odd(ly)
annoyed.

who cares?
god save the queen.
i'm london-bound tomorrow.
see you all back in the states in two weeks.